Golden outline

See the clouds in the sky

The sun gives them a golden outline

Greyish white, pink back drop

Perfect picture, memory shot

See the flowers, see the trees

Dance along to autumn breeze

See leaves as they fall free

In their own direction

Hear the birds sing their song

Laugh, hop, skip along

But don’t be long or you might find

Your ego steals the moment

See the river as it flows

On and on and on it goes

It never stops glowing with

Beautiful reflection

I want to live like them

I want to feel the wind against my skin

I want to see the world with new born eyes

Laugh real laughs, cry real cries

I want to be the person I’m meant to be

Not the person we’ve defined for me

I want to love with an unobstructed heart

Love with an unobstructed heart

See the fields coloured green

They scent the air with memories

Of summertimes that I spent

Walking through the country

My friends and I, do or die

Would take the path that took us high

To where the airs gets thin

And our minds begin to wonder

We’d see the hills and how they roll

Take a breath and let it go

And know

That everything’s connected

The adventure ends

when to the west the sun descends

And the street lights come to call us home

For food and comfort

Now I see the streets, I see them dark

It’s on the faces in the park

The distant gaze

Of the human mind corrupted

How many steps?

The path leads up
To the garden shed
How many steps 
Will I get? 
How many steps
Did he gets? 
No enough for him that day
To make it to his garden shed 

It all moves by so quickly
It all tumbles by so fast
Pretty soon you find yourself
Looking back on the past
If I piled up the money
Counted it all up
I would find myself short
For all those thing I want 
One more day with my family
One more day with my friends
One more day for loving
And one to make amends 
One more step in the mountains
One more step through the tress
One more step through the pages
To that swiftly flowing stream 

The path leads up
To the garden shed
How many steps 
Do we get? 
Whey they found him lying 
Face down on the deck
They found he only had one more step
To his garden shed

It all moves by so quickly
It all tumbles by so fast
Pretty soon you find yourself
Looking back on the past
If I took all my money
Counted it all up
I would find I was short
For all those thing I want 
One more day with my family
One more day with my friends
One more day for loving
And one to make amends 
One more step in the mountains
One more step through the tress
One more step through the pages
To that swiftly flowing stream

Under and Down

When we were young boys

We used to play

Down by the river

Day after day

A good friend

she grew to be

Those cold rapids

Would roll over me

And from platforms up high

We’d jump in the sky

The hard wrath of the earth

She would deny

But as loving and kind

In the summer she’d be

In with the cold winter

Raged uncertainty

And a man

He went strolling

Drunk from a night

on the town

He got too close

Closer than most

And she pulled him

Under and down

The winter passed

The anger done

Back to the sunshine

Back to the fun

She could fool

The most astute of us

Back into water

Back into trust

But the good times

They’d never last

Learn to look to the future

With eyes from the past

But if you want to try

See if you can survive

The wreck and the ruin

Then let me remind you

That a man

He went strolling

Still drunk from a night

On the town

He got too close

Closer than most

And she pulled him

Under and down

I’m a man

I’m a man, born and raised 
I grew up in a broken family 
And struggled to find my place
I didn’t learn to be confident 
I kept quite, hid my face
But oh I’m a man
All the same all the same 

There’s pressure for me
To be someone that I cannot be
To act a certain way or say the things other men say
I’m not that kind of guy, I might look real tough but I’m kind of shy
But oh I’m a man
All the same all the same

I was born into
This box that I
Did not choose 

I’ve been called sensitive like it’s a disability
I’ve been called nice like it’s something that makes me weak
I’ve been called sweet as if I’m child people can treat like a dance floor underneath their feet

When people ask ‘what’s wrong with him?’, they say that I spent too much time alone
I didn’t grow properly, computer games stunted my growth 
And I’m now I’m older my heads not any balder
but oh I’m a man
All the same all the same 

I was born into
This box that I 
Did not choose 

So don’t judge me by the action of others
Or measure me by the feats of the few
I am a man but like many others
I don’t do what we wrote on that tin

And you may judge your books by their covers
But please don’t judge mine by the look of another
I am a man, yes but like every other
I am living through breathing the same air as you 

we’re all born into 
these boxes we 
did not choose

In My Bones

I can feel it in my bones tonight
Something’s wrong inside my mind
I’ve been waiting for the love of my life
Could this be you and could this be real

Well I am just a shy boy and I,
I don’t know what to say to you and I,
I don’t know how to act or what the signals mean

I can feel it in my bones tonight
Something’s wrong inside my mind
I’ve been waiting for the love of my life
Could this be you and could this be real

My Dad he decided to leave when
I was just a young boy
Because he wanted to be free it seems
Free from me and my family
Well Dad you had it and you left your inevitable scar
Look at me now look how your son has grown to be

I can feel it in my bones tonight
Something’s wrong inside my mind
I’ve been waiting for the love of my life
Could this be you and could this be real

And I wait here with you
But I never realise that it is you
That I want to spend my life with
That I hope one day I will die with
Die with you in my arms

I can feel it in my bones tonight
Something’s wrong inside my mind
I’ve been waiting for the love of my life
Could this be you and could this be real

 

 

You live on

Tired and broken

I would have left this world behind me
If I knew with any certainty I’d hold you again
With feelings crushed; Loved and lost
How do I move on?
Oh, how I needed you then.

You told me that I would fill my world with sorrow
You begged me to try and love somebody new
The years rolled by, I moved on with life
I learnt to love again
But I still need you now.

Love transcends flesh and bone
I still feel our love burn within my soul
Love is never truly gone
Because in my heart, our love lingers on

Braver than brave;

your last words when you were bound
To slip away into that night was to tell me that it’s going to be all right
You said ‘Hey, it’s going to be OK’

Then you held me for the final precious time
You squeezed me and to where your life begun
You said, ‘I love you’.

I hear your calls

As I sit here, late at night

On my own, in the silence I —

I hear your calls, whisper through

The many realms, that separate the two of us

You were loyal and you never judged me

And no matter how long I was gone

You’d always greet me the same way.

Sitting by the back door you looked up at me

Then you’d glance over to your lead

You’d want me to take you to the field

Where you were often seen

Bounding through with your tongue out to the side

Taking everything within your stride

Only stopping now and then

To look back to make sure I was alright

And as I sit here, late at night

On my own, in the silence I —

I hear your calls, whisper through

The many realms, that separate the two of us

You were loyal and you never judged me

And no matter how long I was gone

You’d always greet me the same way. dB

 

 

 

 

 

 

Out of the Blue

Travelling light. Heading to the bright lights of heaven. That’s where I’ll stay for a while because I have had enough and I want something new.

Then out of the blue I see some weakness in you and that’s when I knew that there were lots like me.

All heading in the same direction. Each searching for peace in heaven.

And then out of the blue I see some pinkness in you and that’s when I knew that you really did like me but we went out own separate ways and I failed to say how I feel.

Then out of the blue I see some distance from you and that’s when I new that we weren’t meant to be but one day it will for me. One day it will for me.

 

 

 

 

Fairytales, Monsters and Illusions

The dark night washes over me. My chest tightens, I find it hard to breathe. Thoughts race, in and out of my mind, as I journey to a new perspective on life. The cracked walls, crumbling away, are halted by another wave of fairytales, monsters and illusions that separate the conscious from the truth. Where I look for answer there are none to be found, just fairytales monsters and illusions.

He said to look inside and if you’re hurt and your angry then there something wrong with you. Happiness isn’t something to be gained, if you drop your illusions then happiness is what remains. Don’t take what he said on faith, you analyse it like gold: Melt, Cut, Rub and Scrape. Desire, root of it all, keep us locked in our minds identified with thoughts.

Fairytales, monsters and illusions separate the conscious from the truth. Where I look for answer there are none to be found, just fairytales monsters and illusions.

 

These Dark Times

When all the love has gone away and we’re fighting

When all but hate has passed away and we’re crying

Is when all the people
should start to pray
like that good old fashioned Catholic way
for something to
help us through
these dark times

When all the people are living in fear and we can sense an end is near

When all the people can no longer trust the people who are making our decisions for us

Is when all the people
should start to pray
like that good old fashioned Catholic way
for something to
help us through
these dark times. dB